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Journeys end. Friends depart. Every phase of life comes to an end. But every end is also a new beginning. It is a new chapter waiting to open. It’s up to you what you want to think about! The End or the New Beginning....

This is one of my favourite quote.

Finally I choose the route of having a new beginning.. as I know I should go down like this......

Life is full of mystery and unexpected.

Life to fullest....

let's try a BM post this time... it's been a long time i din't polish up my BM n I'm found I'm lack of vocabulary when I'm dealing with my Pengajian Malaysia assignment recently.

Semester ini berlalu dengan begitu cepat. 24 jam setiap hari berlalu seperti 5 minit sahaja. Mungkin kerana semester ini merupakan semester yang pendek yang mempunyai 7 minggu sahaja, oleh itu tidak hairanlah aku berasa masa untuk pulang ke rumah tidak lama lagi. Entah mengapa, aku benci hujung minggu. Mungkin kerana aku melihat teman-teman sekitar aku bersedia untuk balik ke rumah , kampung halaman ? manakala aku terpaksa tinggal bersendirian menikmati hujung minggu yang membosan di Kampar.

Balik kepada topik mengenai semester ini, banyak situasi telah berubah. Semester ini sememangnya tidak sama dengan semester yang lalu. Mungkin kerana orang disekitarku telah berubah. Entahlah, sememangnya semester ini kelas T6 berbeza dengan semester yang lepas. Suara riuh rendah sudah hilang bagiku. Setiap orang seperti mempunyai arah tujunya namun aku bagaikan tergapai-gapai di tengah laut yang mencari perasaan lalu. Aku ingin mencari perasaan dan kegembiraan pada semester lalu balik pada semester ini. Sesungguhnya aku tahu perkara ini tidak mungkin terjadi lagi namun mengapa aku tegas untuk mencarinya kembali nostalgia yang lalu?

Pelik manusia memang pelik dengan prinsipalnya yang tersendiri. Seperti aku yang sentiasa memikirkan perkara- perkara yang lepas dan berharap untuk balik ke dahulu. Namun begitu, tibalah masanya untuk aku bertekad untuk maju kehadapan. Aku percaya sinaran matahari berada di hadapan.... semoga masa hadapan akan menjadi cerah......

Hmmm

Friendship are builds on mutual trust but still then someone still can't get what I mean. All I can said is that a friend of mine acts in a childish and immature way to end off the bonds of friendship with another friend of mine and hers . Believe me, one day you will regrets on what u had done. It is hard to have a friend for so many years but you can lost it in a single second and that friend won't be back to your side as before.....

I really wish to fire some guns to show u the difference.... shall i ?

I hope to meet sincere friends all the way in my life.... here it goes a poem for all my friend

A friend is like a flower,
A rose to be exact.
Or maybe like a brand new gate,
That never comes unlatched.

A friend is like an owl,
Both beautiful and wise.
Or perhaps a friend is like a ghost,
Who's spirit never dies.

A friend is like those blades of grass,
You can never mow,
Standing tall and proud,
In a perfect little row.

A friend is like a heart that goes
Strong until the end.
Where would we be in this world,
If we didn't have a friend....

An Love Story

I come across this love story few days ago.... and of course I like it.

There was once a guy who suffered from cancer... a cancer that can't be treated. He was 18 years old and he could die anytime. All his life, he was stuck in his house being taken cared by his mother. He never went outside but he was sick of staying home and wanted to go out for once.

So he asked his mother and she gave him permission. He walked down his block and found a lot of stores. He passed a CD store and looked through the front door for a second as he walked. He stopped and went back to look into the store. He saw a young girl about his age and he knew it was love at first sight. He opened the door and walked in, not looking at anything else but her. He walked closer and closer until he was finally at the front desk where she sat.

She looked up and asked Can I help you She smiled and he thought it was the most beautiful smile he has ever seen before and wanted to kiss her right there.

He said Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to buy a CD. He picked one out and gave her money for it.

Would you like me to wrap it for you she asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store. He went home and from then on, he went to that store everyday and bought a CD, and she wrapped it for him. He took the CD home and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His mother found out about this and told him to just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and went to the store. He bought a CD like he did everyday and once again she went to the back of the store and came back with it wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and said, Hello

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and the mother started to cry and said, You don't know He passed away yesterday...

The line was quiet except for the cries of the boy's mother.

Later in the day. the mother went into the boy's room because she wanted to remember him. She thought she would start by looking at his clothes. So she opened the closet. She was face to face with piles and piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was surprised to find all those CDs and she picked one up and sat down on the bed and she started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me Love, Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...

Again there was a piece of paper. It said Hi... I think U R really cute. Do u wanna go out with me Love, Jacelyn

Love is... when you've had a huge fight but then decide to put aside your egos, hold hands and say, I Love You.

free

I tried, I gave my best, and it doesn't matter at all if they were refused. Everyone has different choices and it doesn't matter at all...and why doesn't it matter?

The answer is simple: it is the welfare that I care for, not the recognition or sense of belonging.

And that sets me even more free and lighter.

I don't know why, nor I know where the major problems comes from....

and yeah, I found myself low and sunken for the whole entire afternoon. But thanks God, I did found myself back this time, hopefully I'm in the correct path now. Big thanks for my friends who always beside me during I was down, I really appreciate it. ^^

Oh yea...

to save money, I cooked tom yam bi hun today.... cook it with ayamas cocktail, egg. tom yam paste, pati ayam.... yeah easy one.... done XD Chong said it look tasty and of course it is.

Week 1 past.... will be in 2nd week. Wish me all the best in the coming 5 weeks in these semester. I will work hard on it to get a better result.

current mode * anticipating for Pulau Ketam trip this coming saturday with my diploma friends. It's been a long time, or I should say since diverge into different pathways this is our second gathering. I hope it will be a wonderful trip this time... but then i have to sacrifice my trip to Malacca with my UTAR friends.

Another day...

Feel so down for the entire day.

Suppose in a new semester starts with new motivation and resolution as I always thought it would be. I thought I will be more prepared but actually I'm less.

The moment I walked into class which I'm anticipated leads me to a lost in certain magnitude. I don't know why... I seems to be a stranger once again, which is hardly explained. People do change from time to time and why I'm the one who is always linger on the passed.

I'm not trying to be pessimist here but yea on the one hand I am...

I failed my economics paper as what I expected although the overall result is good.

I din't get to cry as what I usually did, and I din't blame on anyone or any thing for such a result this time.

It's time to focus on my study and turn over a new leaf... wish me all thee best

10 more days to go

It's been raining heavily passed two days.

Yeah..... this morning when i woke up I thought I was back home.... my hands goes for searching remote control for aircond... the weather is just perfect like the temperature of my room back at home

still enjoying my angan angan mat jenin until the alarm cock ring crazily.... i realize i don't have such crazy alarm in Bintulu

pops jatuh from coconut tree back to reality

im still KAMPAR.. two more subjects to fight for before i get home..... stop dreaming, belle although i know u r full time day and night dreamer !!! =P

I did an ENNEGRAM TEST

This is the result i get ....

Your result for The Quick & Painless ENNEAGRAM Test ...

8 - the Asserter

Thanks for taking the test !

you chose AY - your Enneagram type is EIGHT (aka "The Challenger").

"I must be strong"

Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.

How to Get Along with Me

• Stand up for yourself... and me.

• Be confident, strong, and direct.

• Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.

• Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.

• Give me space to be alone.

• Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.

• I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.

• When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.

What I Like About Being a EIGHT

• being independent and self-reliant

• being able to take charge and meet challenges head on

• being courageous, straightforward, and honest

• getting all the enjoyment I can out of life

• supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me

• upholding just causes

What's Hard About Being a EIGHT

• overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to

• being restless and impatient with others' incompetence

• sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it

• never forgetting injuries or injustices

• putting too much pressure on myself

• getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right

EIGHTs as Children Often

• are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit

• are sometimes loners

• seize control so they won't be controlled

• figure out others' weaknesses

• attack verbally or physically when provoked

• take charge in the family because they perceive themselves asthe strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings

EIGHTs as Parents

• are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted

• are sometimes overprotective

• can be demanding, controlling, and rigid

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele, The Enneagram Made Easy. Discover the 9 Types of People.

Harper: San Francisco, 1994, 161 pages